Tuesday, June 24, 2014

The Flake

Now I feel stupid,
thinking she will ever care
about my rare time

the lesson tonight
is to look forward to nothing
no disappointment

no expectation
means no feelings of real import
means no shock of pain.

Saturday, June 21, 2014

The Parade

The only time I
felt like I mattered today
I was all alone

anticipation
the sweetest poison around
leaves me defeated

why look forward now
to anything happy, man
why sacrifice self

occasional whim
ignored at the sparkling beach
why did I call out?!

Friday, June 13, 2014

The Gila Monster

The mad lizard brain
unstoppable obstacle
from the truest self.

Sunday, June 1, 2014

The Mercenary

Friends,

I know my small role
temporary contractor
begging for friendship

friends who remember
how many of us have them
callin' bone-cold phones

not many these days
the friends you can depend on
only want tasks

favors to bank on
'fore we go any further
I'm not a suture  

a walking stitch kit
or dial-up-step-and-fetch-it
favorite sad kid

who can i call in
the midst of a nasty skid
home and forgotten?